Now, I've been told I have a charming personality. That I am easy to get along with. However, I've also been told it's like pulling teeth to get me to talk. That I can be quite cold hearted....and quite frankly, a down right bitch. Well, I'm not going to argue with any of those opinions.

I will say I am flirtacious. Sometimes too much...meaning I have gotten into some trouble, and have lost some very dear friends because of it. Perhaps...perhaps I was warning you when I told you I am flirtacious. That is up to you to decided.

Anyway, let me start to when I was a kid.

Perhaps I've said it before. I tend to repeat myself, you see. Anyway, I'm the elder daughter of a military family. Now, I don't know how many of you who are reading this have experience in military families, but when in a military family, things are slightly diffrent than civilian life. One is the amount of respect given to those older than you. Now, I'm not saying that civilians do not show respect to those older than them; there's just more in the military. Too much at times, in my opinion.

I'm babbling. Well, my father had a lot of superiors, and well, his family (my mother and I) had the honor of meeting all of them at one time or another. As a child, I was always told to behave and act mature. Now, they ( "They" being the researchers of baby behavior) say children learn behavior from those they observe at a young age. Well, I observed high ranking officers and their familes interact with my family. Guess what, I ended up way mature. Now, that is not supposed to sound like a conceited remark. It's the truth. I ended up being more mature...having a higher maturity level...than those my age. Now, that has its consequences.

When my sister was born, the same was done to her. Even though we lived in a neighborhood with tons of kids (of course, the majority being male), the strictness of our household still told us we had to be mature. Everytime we were around adults, there were those comments. "Oh, your daughters are so well behaved." "Such sweethearts." "Perfect children." It got sickening.

Having a higher maturity level than your peers is hard. It ends up in some alienation and isolation. They think you weird and strange. "Goody-two-shoes." "Teacher's pet." All such nicknames given by children and peers. I didn't have a problem really making friends when I was younger; it was keeping them that was so hard. We were always moving to one place or another due to housing and whatnot. Of course, I made friends with the boys real easily. I was into the whole bugs, getting dirty, rough-housing type things. A tomboy. Could never really fit into the girl crowd unless they were tomboys too. Oh, I hated wearing the frilly outfits, the skirts, and nice blouses that mothers love to dress their little girls in.

As I grew older, I became more mature of course. My scholastics further isolated and alienated me from my peers (Being a straight A student doesn't really make one popular). I didn't have any real stable friends. I guess you could call them aquaintances. I didn't fit into a niche until high school really. I was a band geek. You know, high school had it's cliques; although it wasn't as bad as it was in middle school. I had established some "stable" friendships. I belonged in band, though. That is where I seemed to fit.

I was always comfortable around those older than me. Of course, being around the guys fit me well, too. Eventually, I found out I could also "hang out" with those a little younger than myself. I began to get along with girls a litte, even though it was awkward many a time. My sister and I got along, even though she had a more wild side than I did. Her friends took a liking to me, even though I tended to act like a big sister or "mother" to them. Right now? Well, I got my guy friends. I'm slowly getting into the whole woman thing, where I can sit down and have those women talks. I'm trying to fit into this social world. A slow process, but I'm sure I'll make it.

I'm still considered too uptight at times, but you know...Having the level of maturity that I seem to have does have its advantages at times...I've had friends tell me that it is one reason why they like me. Besides, life isn't a party all the time...

Well, I have a mixture of on-line and real life friends. Being as it is, I have a best friend on each side. Mostly what you'll see are on-line friends I have met in the role-playing rooms I've been to. Now mind you, the people I list below are the people I consider my true, real , as well as best friends in one way or another. However, Wayne and Nick...those are two guys I couldn't have gotten through a lot of things without. Furthermore, there's nothing I can do to thank all of them enough.

Wayne: He's my real life best friend. Now honestly, he's probably the reason, besides my family, as to why I enjoy going home for a visit and on breaks. I have known him since my freshman year in high school - 1992. Yeah, I had a crush on him, but luckily, that developed into a friendship I am so thankful for. A very long time. He's been there for me in an uncountable number of times to listen to me cry, complain, whine, rejoice...and I have been there for him as best I can. We aren't the closest of friends. Not really, but Wayne knows things about me no else does. Hopefully, it'll stay that way. I rarely see him anymore, with me being in college and rarely coming home for visits, but I think that no matter what, we'll always be there for each other.

Nick: I haven't spoken to Nick since late 1998, when he announced he was leaving the on-line world. True, I was sad. I was losing a good frien, and a great listener...

Now, I should say that if anyone knew me, it was Nick. He doesn't like me laying on compliments, but I'm only telling the truth when I say that he was practically the only person I knew that I've actually been thankful for without having to really apologize for being who I am. He helped me realize a few things about myself. He was there when I had no one else. Calling me late at night to make sure I was okay, after I scared him so much on-line a few times. I don't know what to tell you, except that, Nick was just a great friend to me. I wish there was more I could do to thank him at times. He probably wouldn't let me if I could. So this will have to do. Thank you, Nick.

Lisa: I consider her my on-line sister. When I eventually get the chance to go to England, I'm looking this woman up! She's one of the very few females I feel comfortable talking to about anything. She's helped me out not only on my problems, but also with my stories. Without her and a few others, Kylla wouldn't even exist. Thank you, Sis!

Shaun: My Gwiffie. Well, not exactly my gwiffie, but damn, he's just a great guy. I didn't really get to know him until the summer of 1997 when I got ICQ. role-played with character Kyle Griffin a few times. He's amazing. Not only that, but his Scottish accent is just amazing. I've been able to talk to him about things I haven't been able to with the others.

Torbjon: I've only known him for several months. I saw him in ARGO and got into a conversation with him. Oh, man, this guy is just cool. We rarely talk. Each having their own schedule. He lives up in Alaska working for a fishing company of some sort. He's been there to listen to me babble on and off. Furthermore, his support of my writing is just amazing.

Nate: I've known Nate for quite awhile. Since 1998, though, we've been close friends and dear friends. He's been there for me when all hell seems to take over. He's kept me sane and laughing through the shit that's been happening. I love him to death. Thinking about it, he's a bit like Wayne. A real sweetheart who only seems to get shit thrown at him as well when it's not deserved in the slightest. I can only wish him the best in life.

I have a lot more friends, but the above are those I really love and care for. I do care and love all my friends, but those up there, have touch me in some way that no one else has. I'm thankful for them all.

Ted and I are still friends. We're still working on that. Learning to be friends. I still enjoy his company, mind you. He is a great guy in his special way.

However, I will list the friends I've had ever since I began the on-line thing: Rose, Brad, Dave, Doug, Heather, Paul, Aaron, Leigh, James (a.k.a Tallyn), Gina, Eric, Sharon, Carl, Mark, Will, Chris. I'm probably forgetting people. If I am, I apologize greatly. There's just so many of them. Also, forgive me for not describing each and everyone of them. Several of them have been at my side since I began my on-line journey, and have been with me through every good and bad experience, decision, and action without judging me. I do hope they know who they are. I do love you all!!

I've done a page or two on certain people. I've not erased them because these people have impacted my life, and though they may not belive it, I still do care about them, and think of them as dear friends.

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