My Own Prison ~Creed

A court in session, a verdict is in
No appeal on the docket today
Just my own sin
The walls are cold and pale
The cage made of steel
Screams fill the room
Alone I drop and kneel
Silence now the sound
My breath the only motion around
Demons cluttering around
My face showing no emotion
Shackled by my sentence
Expecting no return
Here there is no penance
My skin begins to burn

So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one

I heard a thunder in the distance
See a vision of a cross
I feel the pain that was given
On that sad day of loss
A lion roars in the darkness
Only he holds the key
A light to free me from my burden
And grant me life eternally

Should have been dead
On a Sunday morning
Banging my head
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time

So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one

I cry out to God
Seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison

MY MELANCHOLY BLUES
~Queen (Freddie Mercury)
Another party's over-
And I'm left cold sober-
My baby left me for somebody new-
I don't wanna talk about it
Want to forget about it
Wanna be in toxicated with that
special brew-
So come and get me-
Let me-
Get in that sinking feeling
That says my heart is on an all
time low-So-
Don't expect me-
To behave perfectly-
And wear that suuny smile
My guess is I'm in for a cloudy
& overcast
Don't try and stop me
'Cause I'm heading for that stormy
weather soon-
I'm causing a mild sensation-
With this new occupation
I'm permanently glued-
To this extraordinary mood, so
now moveover-
And let me take over-
With me, melancholy blues- I'm causing a mild sensation
With this new occupation
I'm in the news
Just getting used to this new exposure
So come into my enclosure
And meet my-
Melancholy blues-

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Brain Stew
~Green Day

I'm having trouble trying to sleep
I'm counting sheep but running out
As time ticks by
And I still try
No rest for crosstops in my mind
On my own...here we go

My eyes feel like they're going to bleed
Dried up and bulging out my skull
My mouth is dry
My face is numb
Fucked up and spun out in my room

On my own...here we go

My mind is set in overdrive
The clock is laughing in my face
A crooked spine
My sense dulled
Passed the point of delirium

On my own...here we go

Sober
~Tool

There's a shadow just behind me,
Shrouding every breath I take,
Making every promise empty,
Pointing every finger at me.
Waiting like a stalking butler
Who upon the finger rests.
Murder now the path called "must we"
Just before the son has come.
Jesus, won't you fucking whistle
something but the past and done?

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over.
Why can't we drink forever.
I just want to start things over.

I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down.

Trust me.

Mother Mary won't you whisper
Something but what's past and done.

Trust me.

I want what I want.

Life...nothing but...

"I feel angry I feel helpless...
I feel violent I feel alone"
One~Creed

You'll find on this page a lot of lyrics. Most of them depressing and dark (Nine Inch Nails, Tool, Type O Negative, Metallica, Hunger, Queensryche, Creed, Megadeth, and maybe a little Queen and Pink Floyd to name just a few). Well, the truth about me is that I'm that way a lot. People just don't see it. I put on the mask they want to see and play the role they want me to fill. I'll babble here for awhile. You can read what I write here or read the lyrics. There will be another page like this I'm sure.

Silent Lucidity
~Chris DeGarmo

Hush now, don't you cry
Wipe away the teardrop from your eye
You're lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream
Spinning in your head
Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game of life
So here it is, another chance
Wide awake you face the day
Your dream is over...or has it just begun?
There's a place I like to hide
A doorway that I run through in the night
Relax child, you were there
But only didn't realize it and you were scared
It's a place where you will learn
To face your fears, retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind
Commanding another world
Suddenly, you hear and see
This magic new dimension
I-will be watching over you
I-am gonna help you see it through
I-will protect you in the night
I-am smiling next to you...in Silent Lucidity
If you open your mind for me
You won't rely on open eyes to see
The walls you built within
Come crumbling down, and a new world will begin
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize
Your dream's alive, you can be the guide but...
I-will be watching over you
I-am gonna help you see it through
I-will protect you in the night
I-am smiling next to you

((The above song makes me think of a few friends, one in particular, and I know he knows who he is. Thank you))

Pity For a Dime
Creed

An artificial season
Covered by summer rain
Losing all my reason
Cause there's nothing left to blame
Shadows paint the sidewalk
A living picture in a frame
See the sea of people
All their faces look the same
So I sat down for awhile
Forcing a smile
In a state of self-denial
Is it worthwhile
Sell my pity for a dime
Just one dime
Sell my pity for a dime
Just one dime
Plain talk can be the easy way
Signs of losing my faith
So I sat down for awhile
Forcing a smile
In a state of self-denial
Is it worthwhile
Sell me pity for a dime
Just one dime
Sell my pity for a dime
Just one dime

Illusion ~Creed

The sun rises to another day
My constitution keeps changing
'Til it slips away
So I lie awake and stare
My mind thinking, just wandering
Does anybody care?
Should I stay or go
Should I sleep or stay awake
Am I really happy or it is all
Just an illusion
Sittting in my room now
Hiding thoughts
Just hoping one day I'll get out
I hear a voice call my name
Breaking trance, so silent
So I can stay the same
Should I stay or go
Should I sleep or stay awake
Am I really happt or it isl all
Just an illusion
Wait now, many things left unsaid
This life remains the same
But I change
I try to fool myself in believing
Things are going to get better
But life goes on
Should I stay or go
Should I sleep or stay awake
Am I really happy or is it all
Just an illusion

Rings and Roses
The Hunger

These are the beast days
Of the worst year of my life
The sky turns hazy, I'm waster,
crazy
Where's my angel, no one to
save me
These are the best days
(Repeat)
These are the best days
Of the worst year of my life
When I can lick, lick till I'm sick
Have sex with everyone, feels
so real

There's nothing like you
Cut me up take my insides
There's nothing like you
Feel, taste, your love
Walk away and never say good-
bye
You'r rings and roses, you're
rings and roses

These are the best days
Of the worst year of my life
Bare skin, naked flesh
Druken sex, I confess
I'll take what you give
If that's all I can get
Repeat Chorus

When I'm in you, you're all I
see
Peel back my skin and there's
a devil in me
If this is how it's suppose to
be
I'm just a relic of forgotten
generosity

These are the best days, Where
are the good days
These are the best days, These
are the good things
Repeat Chorus

Wish You Were Here
~Pinky Floyd...Waters, Gilmour
Lyrics by Roger Waters

So, so you think you can tell heaven from hell, blue skies from pain
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil,
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze? Cold comfort for change
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead-role in a cage?

How I wish, How I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls, swimming in a fish bowl, year after year
Running over the same old ground. What have we found? The same old fears
Wish you were here