Practically every person you meet in your life means something to you in some way. It could be a complete stranger you saw on the street that made some sort of impression on you. Years later, you are suddenly reminded of the man in the plaid sports coat and bright red derby. Then, there are those closer to you that mean more than others. Each person close to you meaning something more than the next. We have our family and friends. We have our loves and our heartbreaks; yet you know, that each one of them means something to you. I've met many people in my life. Most ,if not all of them, I remember. I've had many crushes; I could probably even tell you their birthdays if I think hard enough. If you've read the other pages, you know a bit about my family, friends, loves, and heartbreaks. Life goes on as the saying goes...and so it does...and with each day that comes, I'm always meeting someone who means something to me in some way...

Why did I write all that? Perhaps a bit of a...lead in to someone who is very dear to me...and means so much to me...Nate...

Nate lives in Boston, Massachusetts. How does he fit into my life? Well, he's my boyfriend. Yeah, yeah, I met him on the net. I met him the same way I met Rob: role-playing...well, sort of. We never really talked while role-playing; we never really RPed. Yet, whenever I was upset, there was Nate joking around, offering to take out the bums making me miserable(willing that I gave him some much money in a place he told me), or singing to me just to make me smile.

We became close when things started getting shakey with Ted and Rob. He was going though some tough times at the same time as well. We both became support for each other. Eventually, we got closer and closer. At times, it was obvious Nate had feelings stronger than friendship. However, I was scared to get involved with anyone. I was afraid of getting hurt again. Then, just before going to summer school, I realized I loved him. Is that sappy enough for y'all? Well, we're together, and I'm very happy we are.

I cannot express how much Nate means to me or how I appreciate him being there for me when I really had no one else to turn to.

I love you, Nate.

So...it was given a try. I loved every single moment with him. I never told him in words, nor showed him. My fault. I should have, but at the same time, I also realized I was not quite ready for a serious committing relationship. I told him the truth, and hurt him. He left, and I realized how much I still loved him and needed him. However, I am still not ready for a seriou relationship. I don't know what to do, but I do know I still love him, and I awalys will.